I adore him, he is incredibly smart and sweet and has a wide base of knowledge and humor that covers many of my references and goes beyond. Lovely mouth and cute accent. He put his hand on my foot and I couldn't tell if it was by chance or on purpose. It was sweet either way. He is not boyfriendable… Read more →

I pick him up, because I don't want him to pick me up. His place his nice, he is cute. I like him immediately. We go to a show, he is thoughtful and smart and fun to be with. When he whispers to me at the show and we touch slightly it feels nice. He tells me things about himself… Read more →

I have decided to approach this date as if I am interviewing a PA for a job. I have interviewed potential employees in restaurants before so I can almost believe this and feel calm and relaxed. I have a job to do. He is fun, funny nice. I am not attracted to him in the least. I think he senses… Read more →

we went to the museum, he is better looking then I thought and it turns out that we know many people in common. He is funny and nice. There is no chemistry, well, friend chemistry. We will be friends. Read more →

After the last cataclysmic train-wreck of a relationship, a mere few weeks ago, I decided to get right back on that horse and ride. I was once told, after being thrown from a big beast at age 7 and while contemplating getting back on, that if I didn't the fear would grow and it would be that much harder to… Read more →

We for lunch, he was strangely stiff and awkward, mostly he spoke with his mouth full of food. I don't know why but these things are important to me. He is out. Read more →

Breakfast. It is short and sweet and he brings me beets. Original, pleasing, and yummy. I still like him. Read more →

We meet for drinks, I am so tired I can barely keep my eyes open. He is completely hyper and talks a mile a minute. Operates on this superficial level all the while talking about how deep he is. I am tired. He is out. Read more →

I need a lot of attention lately. me me me me me. I want to be babied and told that I am great. I am smart pretty and good and deserve the best. Read more →

pivovision just informed me that roxy is in the fuckhouse although it has not been confirmed yet Read more →

ok, a few things. one of the effects of being inspired by this art lecture was that I felt that I did not have enough inspiration in my life, so I started making a list of all the people in my life that inspired me. It became clear that there were different sorts of inspirational , creative, intellectual, spiritual… ,… Read more →

Breakfast, he is completely relaxed and comfortable, and since I do not think that anything will ever happen I am also completely relaxed and enjoy his conversation, He is very open and tells me a lot about himself which makes me like him more. Still as friends, but still. He hugs me good bye, which I am able to enjoy,… Read more →

Great Japanese restaurant I loved it, I want to go there all the time. The owner sits with us and is acting as if we are a couple, asking if we live together, if he bought me the blouse I am wearing, I am surprised that this pleases me. He is funny, smart, well traveled, I still like him. Goodbye… Read more →

I set a fire in the garder, set a fire in the madhouse burning in the hot summer sun/ do you remember those madmen? Burning in the hot summer sun. Grow up girl, so I grew up. And there was nothing nothing nothing I didn't want. I couldn't live in a house on a street in a town. If there… Read more →

it may not always be so; and i say that if your lips, which i have loved, should touch another's, and your dear strong fingers clutch his heart, as mine in time not far away; if on another's face your sweet hair lay in such silence as i know, or such great writhing words as, uttering overmuch, stand helplessly before… Read more →

The other night at Charlie’s party, I looked down and this women was wearing the same work boots that Jeff wore for so long. When I saw them a pang just ran through me. I missed him done to my core. Lately, I have been hit by these pangs of loss. That other night in the garden, when I smelled… Read more →

I got stiches today. While they sewed my up I wondered, what if they couldn't sew me up. what if I was just like humpty dumbty? Read more →

the high school girls have had another briliant day of hiking, listening to music, drinking tea, choosing boy friends, and applying nail polish and lip-stick. Read more →

“GODDAMMIT. No one is going to HAND art to you. You HAVE TO TAKE IT. It's not going to happen if you're worrying about other things. It's not going to HAPPEN if you're worrying about decorating the HOUSE. You have to KNOW you're a genius from the time you're FOURTEEN and not accept anything less. So if you WANT it,… Read more →

I am going to add skating to my highschool activities. It is so fun. I want to buy some good skates that roll oh so smooth and then I want to skate, skate, skate. see you in glendale. Read more →