I have been wearing my bikini all day long. Under my clothes with the ties hanging out and the polka dots showing through my shirt And in the mirror just to see if it covered all the things it should. Too bad it is not 1956 to 1965, I would be one hot motherfuckin chic. In 2002 I will just… Read more →

6 bachelors no kisses 3 not dating again 3 friends, some with possible privileges, but probably not. Read more →

it gets out of hand easily. Read more →

How is this supposed to work,? Can you just kiss people? it would be fun to just kiss people, you hug them hello and goodbye, I kissed e at a party once and it was great why can't I just do that? It would be good and fun Read more →

Since I will be graduating high school soon, I think I should start making out with boys. Just kissing. Remember when kissing was so fun? When all it meant was this? Main Entry: 1kiss Pronunciation: 'kis Function: verb Etymology: Middle English, from Old English cyssan; akin to Old High German kussen to kiss Date: before 12th century transitive senses 1… Read more →

Day of doing great nothing it is so rare that I do nothing that I consider it a great accomplishment Read more →

I want to define for myself the nature of my relationships. I have caused myself a lot of frustration trying to get certain things (inspirations, closeness, fun) from people who are not capable. I am trying to recognize what people have to offer and enjoy it and also acknowledge when people lack what I want and need and seek those… Read more →

Do you ever leave the water in the bath just in case you want to get back in? Read more →

It seems that we have moved clearly into the friendship only zone. We went to the farmers market. All of those people and vegetables were a little overwhelming. He had a bizarre interaction with the mushroom lady; they were hostility flirting, which I couldn't really figure out, except that it creeped me out. He introduced me to her and she… Read more →

we have breakfast together and he is still sweet as ever, and I still think I shouldn't get involved, because he seems like such a sincere guy. I realize I do not know what I am doing at all. I had a good time with him. He is totally clumsy and awkward and it is really cute. Read more →

I went to Portland and it was oh so beautiful and I didn't have a breakdown. No I didn't breakdown. Not like the last time, or all the times before. I didn't shut down either, no I didn't, I think I opened up. I went on a run and thought a million things. I ran and ran And thought about… Read more →

It is so beautiful and lush here. I am breathing green. I miss ya'all Read more →

We go on a hike, before I leave for Portland, the day before I go to Portland. He is tense and worried about work. We have tea at my house. He leaves, he still does not kiss me. He seems gun shy and not interested. I am starting to feel insulted. Read more →

Slightly awkward because there is someone there from my past, but I don't want to tell because it is embarrassing. Read more →

I adore him, he is incredibly smart and sweet and has a wide base of knowledge and humor that covers many of my references and goes beyond. Lovely mouth and cute accent. He put his hand on my foot and I couldn't tell if it was by chance or on purpose. It was sweet either way. He is not boyfriendable… Read more →

I pick him up, because I don't want him to pick me up. His place his nice, he is cute. I like him immediately. We go to a show, he is thoughtful and smart and fun to be with. When he whispers to me at the show and we touch slightly it feels nice. He tells me things about himself… Read more →

I have decided to approach this date as if I am interviewing a PA for a job. I have interviewed potential employees in restaurants before so I can almost believe this and feel calm and relaxed. I have a job to do. He is fun, funny nice. I am not attracted to him in the least. I think he senses… Read more →

we went to the museum, he is better looking then I thought and it turns out that we know many people in common. He is funny and nice. There is no chemistry, well, friend chemistry. We will be friends. Read more →

After the last cataclysmic train-wreck of a relationship, a mere few weeks ago, I decided to get right back on that horse and ride. I was once told, after being thrown from a big beast at age 7 and while contemplating getting back on, that if I didn't the fear would grow and it would be that much harder to… Read more →

We for lunch, he was strangely stiff and awkward, mostly he spoke with his mouth full of food. I don't know why but these things are important to me. He is out. Read more →