Blissqueen

The 8:30 am voice from outside the bedroom door said rather than asked
“Do you want me to eat breakfast alone”.
He held me and whispered “This isn't really a vacation for you is it”
And I know he understands.
Now,
I want to
rearrange my belongings,
light candles,
burn incense,
put on the music,
take baths, and
generally lie about
and not talk to anyone (just […]

this morning I took my vitamins with champagne.
blue toenails
I am on the way to the airport

Last night,
2 plates of tuna tartar
and sleep
(that is after I could breathe again)

90 gigs of material
Almost all the work
Since I arrived
Up, in a poof of smoke
Cross your fingers for me please

the smell of dust on a hot light bulb, warm photocopier toner, freshly welded aluminium and the salty taste of a battery. The essences of various woods, the aura of lotus and the moss of willow trees and his essence

In line forever
Under florescent lights
At Kmart
I noticed over and over again
How handsome he was

Part 3 of a 3 point turn that I am doing on a tiny cobblestone street at night in downtown Charleston. I see the 240ZX in my rearview mirror and come close to hitting it, apparently I am not the only one or perhaps I am just the only one that didn't hit it. With […]

He picked me up in his spaceship with kisses oh so sweet
I had a house in the Hollywood Hills, all glass
With trees all around, a bird of paradise in the front blooming
Two cats were purring
Warm water and cold rain
His cheeks taste good
soon

I bought a radio controlled clock today. It refuses to be controlled, it just ignores the signals. Tonight I took it for a drive, hoping it would loosen up, relax and have some sort of communication. It was stubborn and paid no attention, it just announced arbitrary times. I tried to explain that time was […]

from november 22, 2002

I am more relieved that happy. I have had a headache for 3 days.
Last night after working for 14 hours I wanted to go into an isolation tank.
I brought a bag of chips to bed because I didn't have dinner and then I woke up in the night with one hand in the bag, my […]

Tonight we screened dailies late because the director drove his car into a ditch.
The sheriff said, “I hope you shoot better then you drive”.

Dioxin is bad, coochies are good. I don't understand why anyone would put bad dioxin in a perfectly good coochie, and this is why I always buy organic 100% cotton tampons. Today, in fact, I picked some up at the health food store. Funny thing is that the tiny box of tampons is about the […]

I watched myself take a bite out of each donut. After the first 2 or 3 bites I really didn't want to eat any more, I just, as usual, wanted to taste them all. So, I took a bite out of all 12 and then threw the box away. So removed, I thought, how fascinating […]

Luckily I am ready

In a big circular banquet
Veuve Clicquot
Mussels
Escargot
Lobster salad
Crab cocktail
2 dozen oysters, 1 dozen beau soliel, 1 dozen blue point
hands touching across the table
we like the same things…
some parts
inter-changeable
our alchemy
with it's wild
potentials of
summation
and
cancellation….
More then I ever imagined
I watch him show his ID and walk through the metal detector
He moves out of site, but I keep watching anyway.
And […]

Tell me more and then some
Daddy you know what I wanna hear
I want some more and then some of that
I love you only dear
I want some more and then some
Oh how you feel
And then when you done told me
About a million times
How much you love me
And you're through
Start right back again
I've made the same mistake
I […]