In old projections booths there is a metal door held open by a rope pulley and a weight When the nitrate fire starts, it explodes. The rope burns the door closes There are no handles on the inside When the fire starts, sometimes I go in there Read more →

H*A*P*P*Y L*O*V*E*M*A*K*I*N*G A*N*N*I*V*E*R*S*A*R*Y Read more →

One of my secret missions down here is to learn French Secretly, and suprise A I thought surely I would be fluent by now I am not But I can say “bonjour, formage, zee zee” Like the best of them Oh and “croissant” too! Today I told my teacher that I might not see her again due to my schedule.… Read more →

I have heard that when people have babies They cannot help themselves The first thing they do Is take off all of their clothes And examine every little part… Because every part is so amazing This is what I am going to do to Him the next time I see him Which I hope is very very soon Read more →

Mauve is getting me down….. 4 to 6 more weeks Rue de Jean Mussels in garlic sauce I dipped half a baguette I am drinking espresso Listening to Nina Simone and Fred Jackson It seems to be helping Read more →

“the love experience begins when the two are permitted to see, through the intervention of the cosmos, the other's pure and good true selves.Each is permitted to see that the other is his natural and true mate. With this perception comes the knowledge that they fit together in their psychic and physical makeup like a key fitting into a lock.… Read more →

I know the voice of depression Still calls to you. I know those habits that can ruin your life But you are with the Friend now And look so much stronger. You can stay that way And even bloom! Keep squeezing drops of the Sun From your prayers and work and music And from your companions' beautiful laughter. Keep squeezing… Read more →

I am still in Charleston, where it is very very cold. I am trying to get a second wind for the charm of this city, so that I can finish out my time here in a good way, rather than being in LA in my head and wondering why it is so cold and everyone is so slow and why… Read more →

Today I had a conversation with myself that ended like this “look, I am not going to talk to you if you are going to be such an asshole” Read more →

I worked all day inside in the cold. I left my hat and coat on and wore white cotton glove so my hands wouldn't freeze on the computer. Now, no matter what I do I can not get warm. I am going to bed I don't care how early it is. Good night! Read more →

I bought my gas in the bad part of town. Where you can not use a credit card and you have to pre-pay. I went inside and told the man behind the plastic window that I wanted to fill my tank, but I had no idea how much it would cost. As I was telling him I was thinking about… Read more →

Last night I went on a cleaning binge I even folded some stranger's laundry Secretly, just for the hell of it. Read more →

All of the clocks say different times And I still haven't made time to eat the carrots Among other things Read more →

There is some kiss we want with our whole lives, the touch of spirit on the body. Seawater begs the pearl to break its shell. And the lily, how passionately it needs some wild darling! At night, I open the window and ask the moon to come and press its face against mine. Breathe into me. Close the language-door and… Read more →

this year I am even more in love than last Read more →

they will be so good I will order thirteen Read more →

It is very cold then balmy The air smoky and damp From fires and the sea I like the way my heels Sound on the cobblestones And I like the evening light downtown, With it's big moon and light night sky a hundred bats Screeching in patterns all around me. Read more →

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I kissed him a lot And spent time with my kitties I saw my friends and felt so lucky I have the coolest friends He gave me a book called “I love my girlfriend” It made tears come to my eyes We spent Christmas together I like to be in the kitchen with him I introduced him to my Grandmother… Read more →

Somewhere in the heart of experience, there is an order and a coherence which we might surprise if we were attentive enough, loving enough, or patient enough. Will there be time? -Lawrence Durell: Justine Read more →